Perspective is a Gift That Keeps on Giving
Friday, May 30, 2014
A note from Brenda: I recently attended a Contemporary
Christian concert featuring several musicians. One gentleman humbly
approached the stage and stated, "12 years ago I was given 5 years
to live; I have an incurable cancer." Post-diagnosis, Tim Timmons
married and now has four children. He gave me permission to share
thoughts from his blog posts with you.
Cancer is a gift.
Yup, I said it. Cancer is a gift. Now as I start this blog,
please know this: cancer sucks. I'm not happy about it: treatments,
dr. visits, meds, symptoms as constant reminders, managing everyone
else's emotional state in regards to it, the financial drain,
lifestyle limitations, the fears of not being there with my wife
and for my kids as they graduate or get married…stupid. I repeat,
cancer is stupid.
And yet, the gift of this cancer experience has been that of
perspective. You know when you have a near death experience and
barely squeak by…your perspective becomes glaringly sober. The
awareness of your mortality and all that is and is not important
stares you down to your most basic existence. Things like "I've
been taking things and people for granted" or "I've been wasting
time on things of no consequence" seem to echo through your heart,
mind and soul.
For me, cancer gives me a daily dose of this reality that keeps
me grateful. Now I can tell you that I lose sight of this gifted
perspective every day and think/act/react in ways that are not so
healthy, but the gift is in the daily reminder (usually after I've
forgotten) to cherish every breath I take, resting in Who's I am
and nothing else.
I know it sounds crazy, but I wouldn't trade it for anything.
Yes, I'm ready to be healed, and I ask Jesus for that daily…I
actually live as though I will be healed at some point, but in all
the craziness of cancer there is a gift. The gift through an
incurable cancer, or any other sorrow we face, is perspective. And
perspective is the gift that keeps on giving.
I write songs that are simply prayers I need to hear! "In our
weakness, in our fight, in the midst of every trial, be lifted
high, be lifted high. In the waiting, in the fire, every moment of
our lives, be lifted high, be lifted high." (For Your Glory, Cast
My Cares 2013)
I live for the presence of God in my life now, today. I'm
learning to not obsess about the future. This posture starts for me
at the beginning of each day, on my knees, asking Jesus to reveal
what he has for me. All I have to do is follow Him. Cancer is not
my story. The perspective through cancer is my story.
Tim Timmons, Singer/Songwriter